dream in your sleep~cursed love song

so you rain on my tomorrow
but feel sorry that you do

and you say all but sorry
and as well i forgive you

but before i say goodbye
promise me something more...

but before i say goodbye
promise me something more...

that you'll dream in your sleep
tonight; wake want me and
nothing more....
that you'll dream in your sleep
tonight;wake want me and
nothing more....

goodbye,goodbye,goodbye

::a song i wrote 2 years ago,
as a curse on a lost love::

∴∴∴at a loss for words? what a wonder.

i think to a certain extent when you're happy there's so much you can say
but when you know that you have nothing to worry about you don't have
to say anything, because those words resonate, without having to say them.

that's when you know that it is real...

when you are sure of something and you have that truth...you finally find that contentment...that happiness...even when there's always gonna be doubts and
confusion.You find yourself at a loss for words.

An oedipal prophesy~

this pain's too much to bear.
this pain's too heavy on my shoulders.

almost like i cannot breath.
almost like i cannot hear.
almost like i cannot think.

this pain is like an oedipal
prophecy.
too gruesome to tell of.

this pain makes me choke.
is it fair to even begin to love
...to try to love?

is it fair to get so caught up?

is it fair to languish in that love
and still expect that somehow...
along the ways of laughter...joy...
passion...ecstasy...
that in that expectation; still....

more pain?

in some way we have those
realistic expectations...
but whose to expect that you kill your father
and end up sleeping with your mother?

like in some oedipal prophesy-
this is how this pain feels to me.

i hope that this pain
does'nt ruin me.
i hope i can be whole again
so i can love again.

i hope that i can believe in
what's real and true...
and learn to trust the way i need to.