:::stuck inside walls

i can't seem to tell anymore what reality is.
is it enought that i know who i am;what i want?

should'nt it be?
why can't i be free from illusion?
do i see what i want to see?
do i know what i want to know?
do we all feel sometimes like we are not
connected to the world?

~have you ever heard yourself so clearly one day
and so vaguely another?

have you ever said a word over and over
in your head till it did'nt make
any sense anymore?

don't we all wish decision making could be simpler?

that somehow, if it felt so right-
that it would be?

i wish my life could really be
part of what i need it to be...

because wanting just isn't enough sometimes....

..and then of course
finding what that something is....

may just be another story

this feeling of being so discontent...
this feeling of being so shut out

so~ claustrophobic...
like i'm stuck inside walls:::

i wish i could break free.