to find truth-faiths plight

i try to be analitical more than emotional.
i use to live in a world of oblivion.floating around...then i found faith..it isnt about religion, of course it can be..it's about knowing what you believe in and wanting it hard enough.
thats one of the things i trully understand now.

i have my passions...i love food and travel, i love art and music....i love the large, the minute, the obtuse...as well as i hate all those things. i am simple, i am complicated, i am what i am. i think too much, hurt too much...love hard. my new mantra is: "yesterday ended last night, everyday is a new beginning, learn to forget and move on"

there is still so much ive got to hone up to..life is hard..it's so painful to love and be loved... it's so exciting and scary to live..

there is so much my life has become that sometimes i get so lost.

i wish i had a better hold on many things... i wish i was more solid as a person.. i wish i was less doubtful. i wish i could see all i needed to see as well as i could. i wish i was more consistent, and considerate.

im obsessive, im compulsive.. i can get very messed up.. i worry too much..
* when you're young you're so in tune; when you're old you think way too much..

i wish i could strike that balance.i want to finally find whats true...coz without the truth you have nothing.i hope i find it soon... maybe this the start of something