He Said:

as we lay in bed on a lazy afternoon...we fell into a hazy sleep...
i awoke to hold him closer and he said: "No! Get away from me!"-and just as he said that he awoke and muttered "...im sorry baby...bad dream...i love you so much and you cheated on me.."
i held unto him and said:"i would never...you know that..."
"Yes i know"-he said,"it's all subliminal.., i love you so i get scared."

..i lay there and i wondered about his fears and how easily he can get over them.how i hardly ever hear him worry about us.Almost like he knows we're gonna make it anyway.
he lets me wallow in my sorrow, almost like he knows that eventually i'll get over it..like it's a step in the process.

Yet i know he's so tired of hearing about everything over again.
i wish it was as simple for me as it is for him.

is it just that as a woman that we would like to believe nobody could be better than us~as women that is for the one we love?